I am not sure what your concerns are concerning the resource I shared with you. All I can say is that the program was developed by a gentleman who suffered for years with panic attacks and agoraphobia. He has counseled and helped many people with anxiety, OCD, etc for many years. The program simply consist of CDs or downloadable teachings, which explain the anxiety condition, the effects of adrenaline and the thoughts associated with anxiety, OCD, etc. The cost is very reasonable as well. This gentleman is not making money doing this. The online forum associated with the program is safe and encouraging, because it is made of persons like yourself who are at different places in their journey to recovery. I have seen people who started the program/forum simply terrified and in deep despair, but now are doing wonderfully in their journey to recovery. The difference for you is that you also have a relationship with a loving heavenly father and the truths of His Word. Whatever you decide, the best place to start is to listen to the Father’s prompting and begin counting your blessings. He will definitely lead you from there.

I completely understand your bewilderment at what has hit you. You feel like you have been blindsided and feel disoriented. But you are in a good place because you have chosen God in the midst of your struggle with fear. It is not an easy path, but I am encouraged by Russ’s testimony and that of others I have read about on this site. Along with the word of God planted in our hearts with prayer we can overcome. A tool that I have found helpful is a “behavioral therapy” program that basically teaches much of what I have read in Russ’s writings as far as how we deal with anxiety (i.e do not fear it). It is called “Freedom from Fear Recovery Program”. It is a program based on Claire Weeks MD, teachings. The URL is http://www.healing-anxiety.com. This program is only a “tool”, as Russ has shared and truly experienced, God is our answer and our hope.